"I’m planning the funeral before either of us even curl up under the dirt in your backyard and let grass grow from the cracks in our lips
and you’re in my bedroom
and you love me
and I’m marking down the days on my calendar till you don’t
I should be so happy
but I’ve been bleeding in advance
I’ve always been one to plan ahead
so I’ve got our heartbreak playing out in my head
and I can feel it in my stomach like it’s already happened ten times over"